You can tell yourself you don't care about anything or anyone but it's a front that you tell yourself so you don't have to admit deep down you're terrified of people leaving you or you not being good enough for them. I don't want to talk about these things with anyone but my two best friends and they can't do much more than listen. I don't want to give up or fall apart. He is narcissistic, manipulative and controlling and doesn’t see anything wrong with his behaviour. So to get me to move more than ten feet from my house takes effort. I don't have much stress in my life outside of the constant requirements of a toddler and trying to take care of my wife. Almost 6 years with the ex. There are real reasons not to have a baby yet, and there are excuses because you're not willing to admit you're anxious or scared and instead are just blaming other people and things as the reason. I don't harbour anger against them, They're strangers I am not related to, in my mind. This is one of many reasons it's better to not have kids. I just realized that I really want my mom to walk me down the aisle and give me away. Take (better) care of yourself. Good thing is, you're only 24!! My father has a very bad temper, always has for as long as I can remember. Once you have a child you lose the rights to make life about yourself anymore. DUI yourself into prison. Keep your distance from your ex, but find a way to stay in your son's life in some capacity. First off I am adopted and have always felt a disconnect with 100% of people I have met in my life including my adopted family. You can ditch your son but you'll still be a whining, alcoholic, selfish prick like you described yourself to be - and no decent woman wants to get with a man like you. On a biological level the purpose of life is to procreate. My father and I have never discussed what happened during my childhood, and he has never apologised to me for anything. I really hope you figure this out for his sake, or he may end up doing the same thing to his child, whether you stay or leave, they can sense your resentment. “Nobody does. He needs you! From time to time I've seen dads help out with running events while some of the dads get date nights so that they can restart that part of their life. Also wonder how the fiancé would take it knowing he’s gotta cut out the “in sickness and health” part of the vows? It'll improve your outlook. Most likely they're just bar crawling into bankruptcy. I don’t want to go to Disneyland And I don’t want to be the asshole parent for feeling that way. Went on for too long, trying to "stay together for the kid". I don’t remember when I first realized that I didn’t want to have kids.But I do remember the first time I articulated that sentiment to my mother. Your son, on the other hand, thinks you are the bomb, so keep plugging along. Hey, reddit. But I’m close with my mother and my sisters, so I want to visit them and kinda feel obligated to. Also chicks dig the single dad thing. Frankly, most things “Disney” are weird at best, and a little toxic at worst. You can do this and though it will not be easy your life will become easier to make better decisions...and for god's sake stay away from those crazy women! "I don't want to be a father" is a more common notion than you might expect. I don’t exist anymore overnight I went from a happy, healthy active person to nothing. All through my 20s, girlfriends had broken up with me because I swore I would never have kids. I hope you get that some day. Becoming a father is the manliest, most amazing thing. Also, I feel for you on the break-up thing. Valid points though. See the unfiltered opinions of strangers. Fuck everything else. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast, More posts from the confessions community. I don't want to be a father anymore. What do dads really want?Just a little appreciation, it turns out. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Those things aside, telling future women you gave up your parental rights will make you even less marketable... Grass is always greener; I can almost guarantee your ex isn't as happy as you think she is. You can do this and ask everyone for help-cooking babysitting rides to appointments get everyone involved to help you out. Good Luck. I want to run as far away as possible from them both and never think of it again. If you can realise that every single one of your ancestors all the way back to the beginning of life itself has produced an offspring right up to the last existing animal, which is YOU! Email my wife and I sent to family. When you want to succeed that bad then you will. I had feelings like this, but never to want to give up my son. He is your priority and I am aware of how mean I am sounding but you don't need someone to hold your hand, you need a right kick up the arse! You're right: you're being selfish. That being said, I adore my mom -- she is my best friend, and I appreciate everything that sacrificed to raise us as a stay-at-home mom. Since COVID is still a thing and it is forever changing we want to be sure everyone is on the same page when the baby is born and when we are ready to have visitors. I grew up with my mother raising me and my siblings on her own. You may ha e had a shitty relationship but it seems as though you were a big part of the problem. If I felt no connection to people I’d literally never want anyone to be any kind of close no me at all. So what she already has a LTR? My brother and sister and I have different dads, and my dads other kids grew up overseas. I can't decide who I would choose to read this, Red Foreman, R. Lee Ermey, or Michael Caine. I've thought about anonymously sending him this reddit link or even *67 calling him to see what the true aftermath was but this seems like a bad idea and would likely just bum me out. Press J to jump to the feed. I resent my ex for still being able to get laid and find a new LTR while I've had less-than-stellar results (one crazy who I dated for a couple months that ended up wedging herself between me and my son/my ex/my family). Wow. This gave me the shivers. From its start in 1906, A Bintel Brief was a pillar of the Forward, helping generations of Jewish immigrants learn how to be American. Do I really want to be a dad? What you don't want to do is keep coming up with excuses. A lot of fathers feel like you and these programs are free and designed to help out. You're going through one of the downs. I'm neither a male nor a parent, but talk about motivational. I'm reminded by my friends and family that I have my son 'there for me' and I'm lucky since I have a good job/career prospects...But it doesn't help me sleep at night, since I constantly obsess about being alone and single. Get your shit together Tryone. I want to selfishly just say "fuck it", let her take over as sole provider of my son and be able to do the things I want to do (ie. See the unfiltered opinions of strangers. Discussion. Might just be the personal experience of not really connecting with my father, though. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast, More posts from the confessions community. Hey dude, remember, no matter how much you may be down on yourself, your son really needs you, whether either of you is aware of it or not. From there she will provide the urges/feelings you long for. Keeping friends and family from mentioning him? Imagine your father at your own wedding, watching anyone else walk you down the aisle. Hoping he doesn't look for/find you? We are pleading with people to slow down, wear your seatbelts, and don't drive if you've been drinking or are fatigued.” Stuff I don’t want to split time between them and the in-between moments any longer. That, or the fact that dating isn't easy for anyone. A few years ago, I got together with my girlfriend. I wish I could give my life to somebody who would value it as I used to. Almost 6 years with the ex. If you have always felt this way my guess is you are afraid of trusting people enough to open up to them. When I was 20 I got someone pregnant. Whether or not you are being a father along side your wife. I am also very close to my step father. What he does not need is an alcoholic, woman-obsessed child to fall apart on him. Maybe my son would be better off without me. I would have no issues dating a single dad. I don’t like to travel. Edit: also I'm not looking to hurt anyone else physically or emotionally and driving intoxicated could possibly cause both. How trash. Lots of public transportation for when I go out to drink. Lots of fighting and a generally shitty relationship. Well there's the solution. The only thing keeping me here is knowing the guilt I will feel knowing I'm doing the same thing to him that was done to me. But why would you have sex if you feel no connection to people. He will learn how to be a man through watching your actions, so decide today... will he grow up to be a self loathing and self pitying man who quits because things are tough or will he grow up to be a fucking warrior that always pushed through tough times and difficult situations? I've tried melatonin, cbd, magnesium and the lot, but nothing has slowed the adrenaline issue. I don't want to be a father anymore. I know a number of single dads, and none have any more issues than single mothers. Your son will not be better off without his father. I'm thinking alcohol has something to do with those decisions as well! Sex is still sex. This child needs you. I don't give a rats ass to know these bastards and when I was forced to write a letter to my great-aunt, as a teen, I told her as much. It will be really important to him, and maybe to you, too, as you get older. This change begins when I consistently work on a few key areas of my life. so she want to keep it i i really, really don't want to be a dad im about 25 and she is 21. if i tell her to get an abortion i would feel like crap, not just for her but myself in the religious point of view. Not you son from a divorced home or your ex. Or the idea that your child will mirror your better traits through to their adult years. I've read Propranalol will take care of this right away as it is an adrelanine blocker, but I don't want to go to that yet. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live. YTA and so much more - but I don’t want to … You might not be able to rely on other people to make you happy. I just wanted to upload something a little bit more personal because of Father's Day. Suck it up and stop being a victim. I do want her to get what she wants from life and, if that is children and a committed partner, I want her to have that, I just don't want it to be with me. A father that put his own needs and desires behind those of his son. Also, self pity is a very unattractive quality, and may explain some of op's dating problems. I'm young and still have lots of maturing to do. Blah blah blah. The dads go out with their kids (camping, robotics tournaments, movies...etc) and also get child care services for their adult time. Here in NYC there are a ton. I have not. Eventually my undying desire to be alone and the piece of shit I know i am will win and i will leave. He didnt ask to be born. Your son takes priority over your dating prospects! I highly recommend you find a fatherhood support group in your area. I think there's always a huge adjustment period, and it only gets longer the older you get. It sounds like you might need some therapy to help you with this. It used to scare me because he'd get so out of control. I hope this helps others that don’t know how to handle visitors. Edit: I forgot to mention that i also struggle with alcohol pretty badly. For your entire lives? meet women my age without being red-flagged immediately on account of my single parenthood). I thought that I could raise this child and for once I would feel a human connection. I can't help but feel that she is still more than young enough to find those things. Maybe I'm just a selfish prick. You seem to portray yourself as the only victim here. Until then keep crying on the damn keyboard about how bad your fucking life is while your son who you think is watching Yo Gabba Gabba dvd's is really sitting there waiting for his dad to fucking make him laugh and make life better. A father who says he was a “textbook homophobe” has repented after bullying his gay son “every day of his life” for 20 years.. No more unwanted family and you'll get sober too. I hear what you're saying but what do you tell the next woman about your son or do you plan on keeping him a secret from your future woman? Source: I'm a single father of a 3 year old who did "man up". His future depends on it. I always despised that in him. We're having a baby, but I don't want to become a father.. her family expects me to marry her. I want to be alone forever. Get that nasty secret off your chest or simply use this as a place to vent. Keep at it boss. Parenting became your most important job the minute you decided to become one; you don't get to quit. That alone you deserve a medal for! Find something that makes you happy and do it on a regular basis. [Confession] I Don’t Want to Be A Father ... As an adult, I was awkward around my nieces and nephews in their early years. “Don’t worry if you don’t like other people’s kids,” I’m told. I volunteer at a spot that does it. Get over it and move on. Ever since I was a child I stated that I did not want … He needs you more than ever. We've talked about getting kids before multiple times, she's said she wouldn't want any kids, and I told her I don't want kids either. I've been in and out of some type of therapy since I was in middle school. Honestly, there are lots of decent women who date men with children. First off I am adopted and have always felt a disconnect with 100% of people I have met in my life including my adopted family. And as someone who had to live with someone for months after we broke up my hat is off to you! I don’t want to throw out my father’s Jewish library, but I don’t want it forward.com - Shira Telushkin. I have no … I am a very empathetic person and don't know if I can just say, "Fuck it, I'll do what I want… Stop sobering over yourself and be a MAN. But I think I this would crush my dad. “We don't want to see any more lives lost this holiday period. I'm 24 now. And the mother of the child loves me and wants to get married. Is it worth risking your sons upbringing just for a few random fucks with some 8's & 9's? I remember observing his temper tantrum, how he'd throw things, cuss, and utter his pessimistic thoughts. He'd even spank us, but that's hard for someone with a temper to draw the line on a good spanking, so I usually got it good. But I would have major, almost insurmountable reservations about being with a guy who signed away his rights without a very good reason, or who failed to be a part of his child's life. I know this thinking is stupid, immature, self-centered and self-loathing, qualities that made my relationship with mom fall apart in the first place...I guess I just needed to put the words down anonymously since its hard talking to those close to me about all this. Much closer to him than my biological dad. I don't think so. Having loving, caring connections with others has been one of the greatest joys I've had in life. Lots of fighting and a generally shitty relationship. I'm a man. By author Nick Duerden Nick Duerden had a struggle to get keen on fatherhood, as he explains in these extracts from his book, The Reluctant Father’s Club*. I do not love her and do not want to get married. A real woman worth keeping will notice the struggles in your life and that you conquer them like it's nothing. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Your post looks like it goes a little further than that since the lifestyle you dream of could very well happen while also being a father. Not trying to be rude. She's your EX. I never cared for these tough "man up" speeches. Regardless of your history that little boy did nothing to deserve this. Fix your self before finding another relationship and don't be a dead beat dad just for the sake of being a bachelor with no responsibilities. Hey everyone! Ever since I was a child I stated that I did not want children. Get that nasty secret off your chest or simply use this as a place to vent. Also your ex, well if she's a raging cuntbag then she'll always be a raging cuntbag. A man that has work ethic and the inner confidence that can only come from growing up watching his father put one foot in front of the other every damn day to make it better, even if just a little bit better everyday, a better life for the two of them. Two things define you, your patience when you have nothing, and your attitude when you have everything. This breaks my heart. Agreed. I'm struggling with alcoholism, guilt of kicking out my ex, debt we incurred together, the apartment we got together that I still live in but can no longer afford, and unable to meet someone new (whom I know I will be infinitely happier with than my ex but who I can't since I feel like I'm forever marked as undatable). Hey tackle one thing at a time and I am here to tell you the first thing you need to do is give up the alcohol-get help for this any way you can but the last thing you want to do is make any decision under alcohol then deal with the guilt from that decision. Too fucking bad. Look in the mirror tonight and ask yourself how will my son see me? You'll attract significantly* more* decent women if you're a kick ass dad rather than a deadbeat. Now that I'm single (and a dad), I just want to sign away my parental rights. Else I wouldn’t go. You have a child. Still, OP doesn't really seem to be complaining about anything but not being able to find a (sane) girlfriend. My estranged father wants to get in touch, but I don’t want to see him My parents separated when I was young, and I stopped visiting him when I was 10: he made me feel unwanted. "I don't want my 64-year-old parents to go through this. I'm printing this thread off and keeping it with me as a reminder. We broke up last October and continued to live together until March this year when I called the cops and evicted her. How will my actions affect my son who I brought into this life by my choice not his. The stories from friends with kids don’t move me. You're depressed, the thing about life is that it has ups and downs. Keep going, keep him on top of your priority list and everything else will fall in place. Thanks all for the solid advice and the kick in the pants I needed. You'll get through this, man, just focus on learning to love what you have & not what you don't. This child needs a father that is there for him, that will always put him first. Having a kid won't make a person undatable, though it might mean looking in different places and at different kinds of people than you normally would. Good dads are sexy - you ain't and that's why you're alone at night. Thank you though, I appreciate the kind words. I was living the life, pretty nice income for one without having to work, all the drugs i wanted,and a hot girlfriend, And the she got pregnant. They did nothing to deserve this. Actually I've been lucky (mostly smart) enough to not get any DUI's plus I live close to Manhattan. Plus I've tried to fake it my entire life to feel normal. Get pissed off at your situation and turn it into motivation to transcend it. I still don’t like him, I’m still affraid of him and he causes me very much anxiety to be around. If we walk away from this, we both have the opportunity to live the kind of lives we want … 24M divorced with 4.5yo son. (taking a business trip to Antarctica in November) In the same way, I didn’t want to be a father. Want a better life for you and your son like a drowning man wants air. I don't want to pour time and commitment into another person, give them my best, only to risk not being everything they deserve. 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